I'm goin' a little thxthxthx on you.

Hope you don't mind.

Thank you, page 635 of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, for always being there even though I've opened the book to you about five times before having to take off and do something else.

Thank you, sudden outburst, for giving me a relief from the annoyance and frustration caused by someone forcing someone else to move from a comfortable spot while they're in pain.

Thank you, huge bag of clothes that don't fit anymore, for giving me an excuse to leave the house, even for a moment, and let out some crying. I was able to return into the house without much evidence that I'd let this out at all.

Thank you, tears, for doing the same as the outburst did.

Thank you, conscience, for making it impossible to hate someone I love because they're being impossible.

Thank you, empathy, for helping me realize that I feel the same wat they probably do sometimes.

Thank you, comfy bed, for being cleaned so easily and now being open for me to lay on.

Thank you, Daddy, for being on your way home now. I don't think we can last much longer with out you.

Thank you, writing, for helping me feel even better.

And screw you, house, for still being so freaking messed up.

This is really more of a sticky note than a letter.

Oh, uh, hi, Heart.

Uhm, please disregard that last letter. I'm perfectly fine with all the fluttery happiness, even if it means a little sadness here and there. Thanks and keep up the good work. Love you!

-Jenna

Unrelated note for those of you that aren't my internal organs (there are organs that aren't internal...?):

METRO-CRUISE WAS SO MUCH FUN YAY. Lots of cool pictures. :D Megan'll probably have them up tomorrow or somethin', she was just worrying my dad's computer's hard drive was gonna crash or something. xD But memory =/= what's on the hard drive, oddly enough, so it won't. :D ...assuming I paid enough attention to what my dad was talking about.

OH HI THERE GUY ARE YOU ANNOYED WITH MY PERSISTENCE YET? Pffft, Man-in-the-sky knows I am. xD (Megan gets really mad when I say "God" when not talking about Him, so I'm tryin' to quote the Invention of Lying more.)

:D

edit: There are a LOT of things that I didn't realize that were considered organs that fit under the "external organs" heading. So no need to list any. :p

Coincidence-y, yeah?

So, I read this comic called Questionable Content five days a week and yesterday the update was...kind of awesome, but made me wish that I could've done it with somebody that I wanted to be around when I was panicking. Here's the comic I'm talking about. Now, the end part wouldn't happen, because I would assume we'd both be fully clothed and not in our nightwear, and it would probably be about something other than a guy I really really liked, but hey! It'd be nice to have the person I want to talk to a couple houses away instead of a couple of whiles away. I can think of at least a handful of occasions where it would have been nice to walk down the street instead of sending him a message and waiting.

Um. Happy time now?! :D

...I dunno. Someeebody should live closer. >_> Not that he has much control over that right this second.

ANYWAY. Uhm. I don't really have anything to talk about other than that. xD BUT TODAY IS MORE METRO-CRUISE! If you don't know what the Metro-Cruise is, it's a thing on 28th street where all these REALLY cool cars park in Roger's Plaza and by Klingman's and by Toys R Us and you can go take pictures of them and they cruise up and down 28th street. Yesterday, while my sister, mom, and I were out and about, we saw a car that I think I was a bit taller than. Yeah. Kinda scary, innit? Then at five o'clock today is the official cruise where every car pulls out from wherever they are on 28th street and ride up and down. I honestly can't remember what the reason that they started this was supposed to be, but I did learn from a sign they had at Woody's that it's the sixth annual one! And a couple of years ago, when I was coming home from Gatlinburg with a friend and her dad and stepmom, that it's no fun to try and get through. Or, rather, it's no fun to try and get through when you really, really want to get home. Which I kind of did that day because the friend's dad and stepmom were kind of driving me crazy. They were (and still are, I believe) uber strict Catholics. And...yeah...they're a little odd to be around when I'm used to my parents, who took us to church when we were little, but don't really force it anymore, and had me grow up on the Beatles, Meat Loaf, and Ozzy. xD Er, yeah, tiny bit weird.

...euh. Thassit. Time to get ready to go take pictures of the pretty cars! :DD

.....

I'm being stupidly insecure and I'm sorry about that.

You're my friend and I'm scared to see you.

Even though you're fun to talk to, I'm scared to see you.

Even though not talking to you makes me hate myself, I'm still too scared of seeing you to stop.

I suck.

I'm sorry.

Dearest Heart

Dearest Heart,

Oh, you know I adore you so. You make me feel great when I'm watching a Disney movie and the hero saves the day and when I've just received a hug and when I'm reading some lovey-dovey moment in any of the many books I've read. You make me feel like I'm going to burst when soooomeoneeee says something nice. You make Quasimodo and Forrest Gump seem like the sweetest guys ever. But, you also seem to be a little slow on the uptake. I feel like I need to inform you that what you're hoping for isn't happening. And while hoping that that'll change might be comforting...it's not really that realistic at this point. Friends is it. So deal and catch up with Brain. Please, I'm begging you. Forget this and move on.

All my love,

Jenna

"Perhaps just one more, Master Harry, for luck?"

Kreacher completely redeemed himself with that one line, I think. C:

HI THERE WORLD. I'm bored and writing. And reading Deathly Hallows over again, for those of you that didn't get it from the quote. And shame on you if you didn't. The Harry Potter series is freaking amazing and the movies lately have kind of failed to show the awesomeness that is in the books. I mean, really. "I AM THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE *RUN AWAY*" Fail. There is this AWESOME explanation as to *why* Snape referred to himself as the Half-Blood Prince and pffffft. They completely ignored it. I, however, am happy to explain it to anyone willing to listen. ^__^ Granted, though, my explanation might be a little off because I read that part so long ago...

I feel bad for my new books. I get them, get all excited about reading them, then....reread a Harry Potter book because I read about the Battle of Hogwarts so much on a Facebook page that I wanted to reread it. xD But also Ron coming back and....oh, wait, maybe I shouldn't spoil it for everyone. Can I at least tell you what happens to George? He loses an ear. And says he's feeling "saintly" afterwards because, well, he's holey! ...get it? :D Holey? Holy? ....yeah.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH people frustrate me sometimes. Oh! How is it that someone that's kind of pessimistic can be related to someone so happy-go-lucky? (People who know sisters at school..well..you probably know who I'm talking about. xD) One relative will be all "WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YEAH!" and the other will just be "....bleh today sucks." It confuses me. I'm pretty sure Megan and I are about the same level of optimism....as the rest of our family is.....so how does such a big difference occur? o___o I am intrigued.

Yech. I tried doing some squat-like-things while holding Madison yesterday (she's about twenty pounds and thus makes for pretty good "dead" weight) and my legs hurt. A lot. xD My abdominal muscles seem okay from the sit-ups, though, so that's a good sign! ...right? I dunno. I guess I'm trying to get myself prepared for my weight training class this year. Yeah, I have gym again. Wooooooooo.....

Zhiva said Smurf war instead of turf war on an NCIS episode earlier and now I kinda want to see this. I doubt that Smurfs would actually fight each other, though, so that might not work at all....which reminds me, am I the only one excited for a Smurf movie next year? I looked it something up a little while ago and saw who was going to play Gargamel, but I can't remember who it was....*checks* Oh hey it's Hank Azaria! Neat. He was a bunch of people/voices in Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian and he was the "obscure movie actor" dad in Eulogy, which makes him a good actor in my book. :D And Neil Patrick Harris is gonna be in it, too, which should be neaaaaat.....he's also gonna be in a movie based on a book I love called Beastly, which is in turn based on, you guessed it, Beauty and the Beast. ...HA! Katy Perry's gonna be Smurfette. Hee. I dunno why, but that makes me smile.

Thinking about Gargamel makes me think of the valve oil from band...or at least I think it was valve oil. I dunno. It was something that I, a woodwind player, never needed to use, so that's probably what it was. Anywho, it was blue and Weber said that Gargamel had finally caught some Smurfs...I can't remember if I was the only one that found it really funny, though (besides Weber himself, that is).

Meh....that's kind of it...and I want to read more of my lovely book, so I bid you adieu.

These are a few of my favorite things...

I like that song. I dunno about you, but I do. :D

And a few of my favorite things...?

Realizing the people-I'd-rather-not-see-at-orientation's surnames come after "M" (1:00-2:30 is for surnames A-M only) and I probably won't see them, unless they screw up and don't follow the schedule.

Discovering Madison has randomly decided to lay down next to me, even when my squishy pillow has been abandoned and left available for her to lounge on.

How my abdominal muscles are apparently so messed up and weak that my back hurts looooong before my stomach does. xD Silly muscles.

How being bored and waiting for orientation turns into "let's do sit-ups! 0___0"

Soft things that are crack for my hands.

Talking to a person that can make me feel better about seeing the surname-after-M person. :D He's awesome like that. And we actually talked for like an hourrr~

Listening to Megan play Yellow Submarine on the keyboard and then turn around and call O'Malley "hot stuff".

My physics book. *insert awesome face here*

Seeing someone exclaim that they would scream and hug Justin Bieber if he went to their school on a status filled with "I'd kill/beat up/shove down the stairs".

Comments on my blog! Thank you, Miss Katherine! :D

And these are a few of my favorite things~