Monday, September 27, 2010
Just sayin'....
Weber, Joe, Omar, Marcos, Edward, Chris Tett, Chris Best, etc, etc, if any of you ever read this, YOU DON'T COUNT. D: I already know you play whatever you play. So nyeh.
That is all.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
I am NOT crazy.
But the way some people seem to NOT be listening to me when I'm trying to tell them something makes me think that maybe, hey, I'm only imagining that I said anything at all.
Except that other people know I said something, so I'm not crazy. Unless they are, too. And we're hallucinating the same thing. That's not very likely, is it?
First time was yesterday when this City kid in marching band was talking about Forest Hills Central while they were warming up for the game. Y'know how football players sometimes do that little jog-around-their-half-of-the-field thing so they can sloooowly get warmed up and not hurt themselves? Well, obviously Micah (the kid) has never seen this done and started complaining about how STUPID and SLOW they were. I got a little upset and (oops) 'sploded a tad. I turned around and almost-screamed at him about how they're getting ready for the game and just to shut up. As skinny as the kid is, I doubt he could do any better. That "stronger than you'll ever be" shizz he was pulling on Union-Kevin is hard to believe. I bet I could still kick his butt. Anywho, he just continued calling it stupid like I hadn't said anything ad ignored me. I dunno if it's because he couldn't understand me (I get really fast and high-pitched when I'm upset sometimes... xD) or because he thought I was yelling at someone else. But yeah. I buried my face in TrevTrev's shoulder and asked him if I'd just imagined it in my head. He said I hadn't. I wanted to punch Micah in the face a little bit. But I think Weber would be upset if I did that. And that would be bad.
Second time was today during the REC soccer game (which, sadly, we lost; but we got the first goal with only one sub against their four-subs-and-switching-every-five-minutes, so, eh, whatever) and I was trying to get the defense line to move up 'cause I'm sweeper most of the time and sort of in charge of it a little bit. Or at least I get to yell at them to move. But, yeah, Coach was trying to get me to get them to move, so I was yelling at 'em, and they were just standing there, not even a foot apart from each other, maybe talking, I dunno. They were girls, of course (reason numero uno I like to be around guys more e________e) and I ended up screaming a little at them, too (oops). I think they don't like me much anymore. xD But that's okay. I don't like them much most days, either.
Playing soccer is soooo much fun. I think I might actually try and STAY on the Ottawa team this year since I'm going to be old to play for the REC team after my birthday. *tear* I'm terrified that if I do, though, I'll kill myself with all the crap. xD Maybe it's better that we have semesters again. Then I have less to worry about a little bit, what with only having one switch of classes! And I won't have exams nearish the start of soccer, either. So maybe it would be okay.
And I think I've got serious shin splints. It hurt to just be standing after the game today. xD Gym + soccer + stairs = BAD. So, so bad. But that's okay. It just means I'll get stronger!
....right?
Bright side: I haven't torn my ACL. :D ...yet. That stupid red shirt guy probably came close last week. ;___;
But tomorrow I'm walkin' around Artprize with my dad and Megan! Woot! :DDDD
OH! And I made a playlist to listen to when I'm doin' Novanet or something and I picked all songs from the last five years or so! I'm so proud of myself. ♥
(There, Katherine, I copied and pasted. I still like doing less than three better.)
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I had a coolish blog post planned out.
So, yeah, I was going to write about that...but then Andrew said he wanted me to sing, so now I just have to find guitarists, bassists, drummers. And I don't know any. xD Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun.
Uhhhh. That's kind of it. I just wanted to write SOMEWHERE other than the Faceybook that I found it funny that I was thinking about it last night/this morning and then POOF! College kids suck and I want you to sing. xD
Oh! I FINALLY NOTICED THAT STATS BUTTON! AND CLICKED IT! And somehow I have gotten fourteen page views from India this week. And two from a DSi. Hmmmmm, wonder who that could be? ;P
I'm actually really excited that my page has been stumbled upon by people that aren't American. :'D Even if it was a glance-and-take-off sort of thing.
Monday, September 20, 2010
*crawls into hole*
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Short lil letters....
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
"Darling, I don't know how to tell you this, but... there's a Chinese family in our bathroom."
Monday, September 13, 2010
"Don't open the door!"
Hard to believe that about a year ago we all more or less got along, isn't it? If you had said that things would deteriorate to this point a year ago, I wouldn't have believed you. If you'd said it about February, well, yeah, it would be a little less unbelievable. But really? How can people that used to be such good friends (or what seemed like good friends) suddenly dislike each other so much? Things like this make me scared for the relationships I hold near and dear now. Will Jade and I end up hating each other? Will I do something to piss off Andrew and screw that up forever? Will things get too panic-inducing with Brian that I'll stop talking to him at all? Will I do something stupid and permanently disappoint Kate? Will I hurt Megan in a such a way that she won't be able to forgive me for? Will I be too needy for Anna to handle? I really, really hope not, but what if it does happen? It's possible, isn't it? If that happy picture from WMCAT can be torn to pieces, than why not the relationships I have with the people I adore?
...um. I think I wanna be angry now instead of near tears. That okay? Cool.
The immaturity of that exclamation astounds me. It reminds me of last school year when Sharron didn't want Brittany to be in one little room off of the HUUUUUUGE band room because of some stupid drama fiasco between Britt and Dan (generally a bad break up). Sharron didn't want her there because she didn't like her. Didn't think she should have to be in the same room as someone she didn't like, so she wanted Brittany out, even if she was trying to help Nikki. I got frustrated with her and yelled at her, half crying because I was so angry. It's just really immature to not be able to share a space with someone you don't like. Even more immature to try and lock them out at lunch. This "don't open the door! No one open the door!" stuff is just ridiculous. I know we're high schoolers, but geez. I'd rather you guys cussed each other out than deal with this little kid crap.
And whoever took Anna's pen should give it back if they still have it. I mean, you tried to lock them out. It's the least you could do, right?
Oh, but wait. You're immature. So you won't give it back. Nevermind.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Thought Dump!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I'm feeling pretty fantastic.
I got Megan to her class, even though she had a little issue with the sub being unprepared and maybe mildly not-smart. AND MABIN'S STILL THERE! Oh, gawsh, YES, I am so happy about that. xD I don't even have a class with him at the moment and I'm ecstatic (but guess who's gonna be hounding those counselor to get them into his class neeeext tr-er, semester~~?). My math class seems to be okay. AND LIFE IS SO CONFUSING! I didn't get a hug, but...still! So confusing! And Kibbey, Megan, and I all have the same Yellow Submarine notebooks! :D Life is so cool sometimes!
Uuhhhhh in physics Evan (who looks WEIRD now, btw) decided that he and Richie should sit by me. I dunno why. But he did. But that was okay, too. I have them in weight training, too, which is gonna make me look so weaaaaaaaak. D: But that's okay! I'm a girl. I'm supposed to be like that. :3
Uhhhhhm other adventures or interesting facts of the daaaaay....I HAD TO YELL AT THE BUS DRIVER TO MAKE SURE SHE DIDN'T LEAVE US AT CENTRAL. 0___0 It was kind of stressful. I was polite, though. I said "excuse me" and "please". She was kind enough to come back around the block and get us even though she was pulling out of the parking lot. She was nice like that and I thanked her very much when we got off the bus. :3 She's nice nice nice.
BUT OMG! We got to City and NO ONE WAS THERE. At all! It was just us Montessori/Central kids in the biiiiiiig ole general-band-stuff room. But then people slooooowly started trickling in and I guess either Central was the closest or we got out the earliest from our fifth hours. *shrug* Or somethin' like that.
WEBER! Yes, I HAVE HIIIIIM. Ahaha. And I finally got him his pin that says something like DARTH VADER SITH LORD or something. I was going to put "WEB" over the "VAD" so it said DARTH WEBER because, well, that's what he is, but I didn't get the chance. ;__; He wore it for the rest of class, though, which was cool. :P He was also wearing his lame Central polo, I noticed. Bleh.
It was really warm today. xD Warmer than I thought. And I got to see some of my City friends, Cheook and Lashia mostly! But I got hugs and Cheook was mean and said I'd be in beginning band just 'cause I couldn't remember scales off the top of my head. D: She's not very nice sometimes. But she's not gonna be in marching band because she's a lamer. Hopefully, when everybody plays marching band music together tomorrow, she'll like it and she'll wanna be in marching band! :D 'Cause that'd be cool, even if she isn't the nicest all the time. :P
....uhm yeah! I think that's it. SCHOOL WAS OKAY FOR ONCE!
OH WAIT! I'm feeling NORMAL! Like, happy in an eight year old way where everything's just cool. I don't know if I'm too tired to worry about stuff or just too little-kid-like to care. But it's cool. I'm not longing for anybody and I'm not feeling giddy because of anyone and I kinda decided somebody'd be more of a big brother than anything else. *shrug* 'S what he's acted like, really. Sorting out my silly problems. (Yes, sir, you're a big brother now. ;P)
But that's really it. I'm happy and okay with stuff and completely exhausted. xD And I get to do it all over again tomorrow and the next day and on Monday and the next day and the next day! Life's okay! ^^
Saturday, September 4, 2010
You'd think I'd 've stopped thinking about this by now...
Friday, September 3, 2010
pffffffffffffffffffffffff
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Things that suck.
My stupid panicky brain.
Getting mad at my sister for something that isn't her fault.
Being the more fragile and panicky one when I'm supposed to be the older sister that takes care of her.
Vacuum cleaners.
The stiff feeling your face has after a long cry if you didn't wipe the tears away.
Having only one friend that you feel like you can talk to about what's bothering you.
That one friend being too far away to get a hold of very easily (and cellphoneless. grrrr.)
Straws.
Laughing at something a friend said but then bursting into tears again.
Still having a heavy feeling in your chest even though you've cried and cried and cried.
Having about two hours to figure out how you're going to deal with something that you really didn't want to deal with.
A house that still is a mess.
Caring that the house still looks like a mess and being too lazy to do anything about it.
My nose being stuffed up so I can't even try to practice Breathe to feel better.
Realizing it's been a really, really long time since I decided I was going to try and cover that and I still haven't done it.
Being as pessimistic as I am right now.
Not getting a response from someone you need to talk to.
This pessimistic post being written much faster than my more optimistic ones.
Knowing EXACTLY why I do something completely stupid and horrible and doing it anyway.
And a bunch of other things, too, but that about covers it.